i am always the extra in everything...

to u

2011-04-07T20:19:00.001-07:00

We juz have communication breakdown, nth else..

2011-04-04T02:54:00.000-07:00

xian xian, i damm sad now.. no point crying over such small things hor?

but still..

cant control..

dun say i am xiao qi hor, it is normal for people to be jealous like me..

need to talk to u asap!! or maybe i will do things that i am not suppose to le..

cuz i am losing my mind soon!!! :x

S.O.S

2011-04-04T02:49:00.000-07:00

i am nothing to you, so.. so what if i lied..

jealous, of course i am, u still can ask me that question..really dun noe wat u are thinking when u are sending me that message, if u think thats funny, sorry, it isnt at all.

now i dun even noe am i really that important to you le..

all your messages and your action juz dun match at all..

as for u, FUCK OFF, really furiously mad le, no joke this time!

2011-03-31T06:46:00.000-07:00

it feels so different.. why is that so? ...

2011-03-29T09:07:00.000-07:00

i found out that it is no point to care about u, everytime when u are sad, or anything, u doesnt voice out to us, or i should say me... i really think u are a very nice person to be friend with but, my girl, friendship is linked with trust... i doubt seriously if u trust me or not... no matter wat.. this is my last year le, so no point for me to question about this matter! i will juz bury myself in piles of books and live through this year..

2011-03-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

I AM JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRR!!!!!!!

2011-03-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

today fought with u again.. sigh..
hope u dun remember them for long hor, try to forget!
juz remember that i love you k? :)

but hor, u are really a peeking tom loh :P
now you caused your cat to die le, so dun do it again k?
i did planned to tell u de, but who knows that u will go peek my phone!
to think i trusted you that u will not do that de loh..
:P so from now, cannot let u touch my phone le!!

2011-03-22T11:48:00.000-07:00

i noe one day u will see this :)

DEAR, althought recently, we are quarrelling due to some reasons, but still dun be angry with me no matter wat k? i cant react when you are angry de loh, so i wun noe wat to do when that happened..hehe,good thing is till now you havent gotten angry with me before, only pekchek hor :P ur 16th birthday is coming le worh, hehe, someone lao le!! :P the only good thing is now we can watch nc 16 movie openly le!! wahaha!! hmmmm.. this i havent tell u yet but hope by chance u can see this, dear, next year is an super important year to me u noe, we may or may not get into the same sch, if we cant, we will have lesser time to be together.. i am seriously damm scared that wat if one day we arent together le, wat will happen to me leh? i am already used to how you dote and love me and all le, this is something that others can never do it to me, wonder wat will i become if i lose you ..

love,
Valerie

2011-01-14T07:02:00.000-08:00

forgive and forget..

i can't do that anymore..
all i can is to dun care then the problem will juz be hanging there unsolved..
why is my memory getting better?
i miss my vstm!!

you noe, i actually mind wat you are doing, the only different is i dun express them..
it was one of my greatest mistake to noe you..
why are you such a dangerous creature..
i will therefore distance from you now.

i am finally sick..
but at the wrong time!!
zonal is round the corner..
you giving me problem..
him..
me=R.I.P

happy thing of the year!

-i have my cliques with me! having recess together is an enjoyable things to do everyday, peach tea is the fav. between us :) happy happy happy with them!!
-poor christ! now got plenty of stuff to do le lah!! :X
-"les partner" xian, haha!! she has been entertaining all my illness loh! :P
-nette! althought life is unfair, still, stay happy! :D
-sheryl! with the bling bling teeth now!! althought still veryyyyy unglam :B

2010-12-30T07:08:00.000-08:00

until now then i noe, i am nth but a selfish bastard

2010-12-10T07:45:00.000-08:00

i wun regret for wat i chose.. i guess..

i am being lock up in a box, or you can say i am locking myself up..

so yah, i will decide for my life!

'life suckz' -ping

2010-11-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

my blog is super duper bored right? :x

i got an audience that will always read my blog :)

'why are all my friends leaving me?'
'they are not leaving you, u are the one that leave them..'
'?!'
'so will u go back to them?'
'nope, i will juz fade away..and soon i will be washed away like the words written on a beach'

i dun need friends to survive...

ever since sec three, my friends have all distant from me, c,s,a,q,z,a,c,j... all i should say all of them?

i have no best friend.

i had before but it had became a regret to me forever.
i read her blog before..
and now i will follow her footsteps..

every morning, i will wear a mask with a smile on it.
smiling to everyone i see, laughing with everyone.
when the clock struck twelve,
my mask will 'pop out'!
and the face under the mask..is a face with a drop of tear..

2010-11-04T08:17:00.000-07:00

you people, noe sth?
my dearest younger did a video on my family, and guess wat!
my pics wasn't in..

her reason is she couldn't find my pics then put lots of doraemon pics!!!
thus, helpful people like me!!
pass her a nice pics, the HALLOWEEN pics taken by agnes :)

it is always a goodbye before every hello, thus, goodbye to you all!!
then hello new people!! :)

reflecting time!! ( inspired by mingwei!! )

i said goodbye to lots of people this year...
i didn't really say but is juz that i can feel that a great wall is between us le..
there is really too many to list here le..
not that they are bad or wat..
is i am the one who decided to give up on myself, to give out our friendship..

there is no gain without loss.

i lost friends but got you in return :)
is that a good deal?
how good life will be if i can have both..
but i mustn't be greedy..
and i also have no rights to be...

now for the hello part!!

i met lots of new friends this year!!

got super irritating mingwei :P
but he is like marshmellow, must grill him on fire then will become soft and be a nice human :P

also, got agnes!
haha!!! she is like..hmmm..gummy bear :P nice, and had a colourful life!

pingping!!!
juz like ice cube!! very cold but is also easily melt,once take out of refrigarator then melt le :P good person juz like ice cream!!

the reason why they are all food is due to my poor english :P
i do not have other vocab to describe them :P wahaha!!!

i also got a bloody thing this year!!
guess wat is it!!!
it is a human heart!!!
i had dissacted it and saw my name there :D
so now it belongs to me le!! WAHAHA!!
no taking it back hor!! :P

2010-10-05T03:29:00.000-07:00

i dun like...
really dun like...
really really dun like! :/

2010-10-02T09:32:00.000-07:00

even a clown have a sad face, so you definately have the right to be sad, but juz remember to tell me! if you share your sad things with me then you will only have half of the sadness! cuz i will absorb sad things from you and thus, we can be sad together, doesn't this make you happy? :)

so yeah, human in the world, BE HAPPY!!! :D

2010-09-27T05:04:00.000-07:00

if i'm nobody, i'll do nth.
if i'm somebody, i'll do sth.

Q HERE.

2010-09-26T09:39:00.001-07:00

YOU CAN ALWAYS CARE ABOUT ME AND G THEN^^ TEEHEE.

2010-09-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

someone told me sth today..below is wat she says...

people flirt also none of your business , you care so much for wat, you yourself also having dun noe wat with him and him wat. if you can't bear to see then dun see lah! CAN'T YOU JUZ LIVE ALONE? YOU ARE ALSO BORN ALONE WAT, BUT WHY NOW YOU TREASURE FRIENDS SO MUCH LIKE YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM? juz be mature lah, trust nobody but urself.

this is wat she told me, and it left an impact to my life cuz from now. i.dun.care.about.anything.

2010-09-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

after reading your blog.. i have a question.
how can love be soooo selfish?
why when you in love, it doesn't seems sweet to me at all, all it seems to me is i pity that guy, poor thing..

thanks to ... yes lah, its you.
thanks for making me feel that there is no pain, no tears in love.
only sweet and good memories are left behind.
you make me enjoy love loh.
others make me feel so negative to love.
but you showed me the most positive side of it loh!
thats a great achievement! :P

2010-09-13T08:22:00.000-07:00

everyone not in good mood loh..
why oh why?
i seriously dun like to see my friends to not be happy..
you belong to the happy world not this emo world that i lived in, GET IT??
so pls.. be happy!

now i finally realised something..
that is no point being hardworking..
be it work or anything..

i wished you will still remember my blog, but.. you didn't..

today my morning was destroyed...
in class also..
but was fixed back nes and ping! thanks!!
had fun chatting and playing with nes loh!! be happy!!!

minyi appeared at work!
haha, you are lucky to appear after david left loh :P

life have ups and downs.

HI I HACKED IN :D

2010-09-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

No matter what, you will always have your bunch of goodfriends with you. And I'm one of them.

You know, I know, We know, that this is life. And things wouldn't go the way we want them to be. Every good thing sure comes to an end. But we ought not to grieve over it. Be happy because it happened.

A strong relationship don't break easily. Maybe, just maybe, somethings happened at her side, and things are going nuts, so she lost trust in many people, even you, like her bestfriend? I believe she will step out of it one day, and comes back to you. That's true friend. Be happy okay.

Even if the world come crashing down, you ought to know, I'll be here for you. (I know this is super duper mushy and I can't believe I actually wrote this here)

Be positive! I'm with you :)

SMARTGIRL_95 here :D

2010-09-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

friends= trust
no trust between you and me, means..

sorry but i noe our friendship does not have strong bonds, eventually, it will break, it is juz the matter of time...
by right, we should have the most trust..
by left, we have juz the pathetic amount of trust..

went out with sheryl today!!
hmmm.. sheryl, i didn't noe that you are a stalker loh! :P
she helped me dry clothes, funny right?
wasted time in drying and eating..
haha!! i guess next time dun ask me go study with you lah, ask me go out play better!!
and.. psps.. left you alone in library ltr.. sorry!!

then went to meet ping ping and nes!
then the jeremy popped out!!!
reason being.. nes, i think you prefer to say yourself bah :P
won one pool match!!! beat ping for once!! WAHAHA!!

sorry but i noe our friendship does not have strongbonds, eventually, it will break, it is juz the matter of time...
by right, we should have the most trust..
by left, we have juz the pathetic amount of trust..

2010-09-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

i live in sorrow..
i wanna get sick..
i wanna to rot on bed..
waitin for people to take care of me..
but that wun happen..
i am a healthy baby...

2010-09-05T10:52:00.001-07:00

was very happy for the library thingy..
but am i happy for the whole thing?
no..

to valerie:

you seriously is the worst person in the world! you can't even judge a person..
you only noe how to cry in the midnight in bed when you are sad..
can you grow up?
can you learn how to control your own life?
can you stop being kind?
can you stop being childish?
i am utterly disapointted in you..
you had let me down..
and now..
i am going to give up on you!

from: valerie

2010-09-05T10:43:00.000-07:00

obvious that no one noes that my blog is alive..
sad thing isn't it?

A research on earth, and here are my results.
1. there are no 100% pure person
2. best friends does not exists
3. most people live in the world of lies
4. cliques is the word that tie people up
5. there are no true friend
6. no happiness
7. love is fake
8. friendship is a lie
9. Valerie sucks!

2010-09-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

i really wonder who will remember my blog loh...
pls tag if you are here..
cuz i am seriously curious..

2010-09-03T10:10:00.001-07:00

worst day of my life!

but i cannot blame anyone...
i am not meant to be a leader..
and never i will become a good one..

the children day is the best way to show everyone..
I AM NOT A GOOD LEADER!! I CANNOT LEAD PEOPLE!! AND THATS THE TRUE THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!!

i didn't thought of the problem that guns cannot board a bus..
i didn't expect that you all were that kinds of RESPONSIBLE PERSON...
i didn't knew that school property was not for public uses...
i didn't expect that working today is the biggest mistake...
i didn't see your true colours as a teacher till today...
the most important thing is..
I DUN EVEN NOE THAT I AM SUCH A FAILURE TILL NOW, TILL TODAY!

this is the first and the last time i will ask my BELOVED school to support me on doing outside events...
this is the last event i will ask you to join this kind of events..

good thing is, i learnt a lesson...
good people is not as good as they look like.
smart people is not responsible as they look like.
good friend doesn't mean that they are trustworthy.
good teacher doesn't mean they are kind.

now there is a few things i wanna shout out.. to some people..

'LOVE IS NOT EVERYTHING... AND YOU HAVING LOVE, HAD LOST EVERYTHING...'

'YES, YOU ARE KIND. YES, YOU ARE SMART. YES, YOU ARE FUN TO PLAY WITH. BUT.. CAN YOU PLAY AT THE RIGHT TIME? ... '

those are the negative ones...

positive is below...yet still sad..

......... :
you really have the potential to be everyone best friend :)
but i doubt i have the chances...

.......:
love being in the same class with you!
as you will never pangseh me de :)
cheerful de you then is the true you..
so yah, show your true colours bah :)

.....:
althought you are not a good student in teacher's eyes..
but you are a person that is always good to your friends de :)
and yah, not to forgot!
you dun suit the emo kind hor! so dun be one! BE HAPPY!!!

.......:
althought we this year then close...
but still..
i really like to have a friend like you!! :)

.......:
cry when you need to, smile when you want to, love if you like to, hate when you need to!
dun force yourself in doing anything :)

.......:
to you... i am seriously sorry..
i am still inmature..
still childish..
still can't decide on anything..
still cant...
sorry is the only word i can say now.
sorry.

....:
sorry for ignoring your messages today..
was really not in the mood to entertain you today..
tmr then work together bah :)

one year had passed..

2010-08-15T08:37:00.000-07:00

now.. i am soon going to turned 15!
is that a good thing?
NO!

nth has been right as i grow older..
best times..hmmm..
is sec one and two!! :D
friends are so closely with me, bonding like nobody business :)
yet, this day had come, the time had pull us all apart,
i can choose not to believe it but..deep down, we all noe that things will never be the same again..

oh yah!! i want to thank NOEL!!
hey man, thanks for entertaining everyday at work :)
u never failed to bring a smile on my face de loh!
thanks for everything you had done for me!
feeding me all the sidekides and causing to have supper every time loh which is causing me to grow fatter by days!! :/
nevertheless, thanks!! may happiness fall upon you and her!!
althought working is boring but days still have to go on, sooo.. JIA YOU!!

class 33 is fun, but i seriously think that we have to bond a bit more, starting with our form teacher :X sigh..
but.. MR TONG, you are the bestmanz!!

lastly, i have one birthday wish..
can i not be lonely anymore? ....

alone

2010-06-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

today, one of my friend is not single le, CONGRATE MANZ!!! WISH HAPPINESS FALL UPON U!!

hmmm...since when did i become so lonely arh? since sec 3? or is it from the day i am born?
when i was born, i am alone in the hospital. althought parents will come to visit me with a smile on their face. but they are not always there with me, and cuz i cant talk, they does not noe how scared i am to be born in this world and how lonely i am.

since kindergarden till now, i have plenty of friends with me, but why when i looked back, i dun seem to see anyone that leave a good memories in my life?

and now, in sec3, i understood why people can't live without their loved ones, like bf. cuz they will be the one to always think of you, to always care for you, to always be there when you are alone. this is wat a friend cant do cuz they have their own life...

i am always alone ever since i am born. friends are only stranger that say hi to you. boyfriend are like a chair who can provide you a place to rest.

stranger will leave eventually.. chair will spoiled one day.. and the only things that is left is me..

a lousy person named me

2010-06-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

i am not someone with great leadership. and i noe it is true.

friends is the path to trouble!

2010-05-31T12:08:00.000-07:00

sometime i do wish that i am someone who have no friend at all..
sometime i do wish that i never knew you..
sometime i do wish that u can juz disappear from my life...
sometime i do wish that time can go back to the time where you didn't change..
but now the only wish i want to make is to make myself disappear from this place named EARTH yet with a nickname called HELL!

now is 3 plus plus..

2010-05-31T12:01:00.000-07:00

the only reason that i am not asleep now is becoz, i do not want to oversleep for tmr netball training!

i am left alone now with only netball and myself..

why do i always feel so sad to go home ALONE immediately after school?
i find it so SO so hard to live alone!!

if given a choice... i will not choose the life i am having now..

and that is WORK, SLEEP, NETBALL. NTH ELSE!!!
but the bad part is.. i was never given a choice!

i am back..

2010-05-31T11:50:00.000-07:00

hmm... i wonder when is my last time blogging..
hehe!! should be long long time ago bah.. wahaha!! :)

anyway, the reason to blog this time is to juz say a few words!!
a few things to say:

1) work had become not as fun as before le..sadded !!good part is there is an annoying orange and sick good manager there to play with me :)

2) school is terrible!!! friends...sigh..netball..sigh...study..sigh..

3) this june holiday is the worst i ever had..

cuz..even i have time to go out.. i got no one to go out with.. except for MINYI!!! (thanks for going out with me!!!) everyone is busy with their own life.. nomad, relationship, ncc air and all...

4) my goal is to grow up, to survive without friends! loneliness will be my best friend now!

5)what if... i am attached? will i be as lonely as i am now? will i? or will i not?

6)i am writing all these things is cuz.. i noe that no one will come to this blog...

....

2009-12-27T18:51:00.000-08:00

why is it so difficult to do things together. to play together. to do out together? ....

netball!!!

2009-11-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

recently my world is turning around a few things,
netball, work and sleep.
-nth else le-

sorry to all, for being late like siao these few days..
-sorry-

ps to everyone for being irritating
-psps-

you are a good boss to me!! :)
- ck-

you a bit too serious bah.. scare scare..
- ah shuen-

sad that u quit le loh..
- valerie ong -

smile always :D dun sad dun sad, my shoulder can lend u de!!!
- minyi -

oioi, dun slack!!! :P
- jia meng -

sorry to being late to meet u..
- christ-

get well soon!!!
-nette-

ask me to go run with you bah :)
- to anyone-

i want to go somewhere and lie down and rest..
tired.. really..
today jm and m is in store,
look sooo sweet..
yah, i noe minyi you will get wat i mean,
so left upon store close..
didn't eat but actually very hungry so went home have maggi..
sigh..

running can make mind out of oxygen and stop thinking.
-valerie-

i dun noe wat i am doing these few days actually, it seems that the world is turning too fast, time flies even during work, i tried to race against mr time but he dun seems to need any drink break loh.. so lost and he run ahead of me, leaving me behind.. lost in space..

2009-10-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

today was really really tired..
the understanding you became..
sigh.. not your fault but mine..
so never mind! :)
everything will be fine after a night sleep bah.
right?

today work was tired, the super auntie ah yee was not here, so had lots of things to do, rather tired bah..
maybe that cuz my temper level to went up..
sigh..

smile ! think positive!!! wahaha!!!

but still feel rather.. sigh.. dun noe wat to say..

today my heart was bright green..
which also mean.. jealous..

oi! mr! dun say i didn't warn you, dun feed me too much of vinegar hor! :/

2009-10-14T12:22:00.000-07:00

seriously speaking, why others blog have so much good things to say?

i myself dun have even one good thing to post on blog..

practically juz nth..

2009-10-14T12:17:00.000-07:00

work - not good performance

friendship - not good now

studies - should be not good, must wait for results to be out

family - not good

relationship - i am being too childish...

so, in short, life is juz black and white for me.

so from now, my favourite colour will be black and white.

2009-10-14T12:13:00.000-07:00

want to cry but my eyes are too dry for it..

want to bleed but noe that blood are not for wasting..

want to self-destroy but understand the fact that i am not a robort..

in the end.. nth can be done..

2009-10-14T12:08:00.000-07:00

how i wish that the time can go back...

how i wish that time can pass me faster..

how i wish that i am not even born..

how i wish that i never met you before..

how i wish that i am not who i am..

how i wish..

how i wish..

but i noe that none of this is going to happen..

2009-10-14T12:06:00.000-07:00

things in mind :

jealous
hatred
sadness
confusion
giving up

end of list

2009-10-14T12:04:00.000-07:00

things to do everyday :

eat
sleep
work
rot

end of list

reflection

2009-08-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

long time i didn't post le
althought very lagged but i still must say, thanks for the birthday party!!!

ok, now my reflection starts now!

according to my phone, now is 29/08/09, saturday, 1140pm.
the whole day started rather well, except for the part that i am late for my training.
but never mind de, have lots of fun having my lunch buying otah and eating things!!

happy time ended when i reached home..
it all started when i woke up after a sleep..
i started to have bad temper for no reason..
and i started calling my friends due to some reasons..
how i wish time can turn back and i can call them later when i am cooled down..
i threw my temper on them..
espectially S and A..
sorry to both..i am really sorry..
hope this time u all can forgive me...thanks..

next is for my friends,
sorry about these few days for not being able to go out with you all due to work.
sorry..hope u all can understand...thanks..

lastly for my poor fairy goduncle who is currently offline..
i noe i always bully u de...
i threw temper on you when the days that i am sick..
but u always never blame me..not even once..
sorry and THANK YOU!!

finally new update!!

2009-07-05T19:04:00.000-07:00

haha, i recently found out sth interesting leh
almost everyday i will offend one people,
no matter they are close friends,
or normal friends..
sigh.

yesterday went to sheryl house to do hw.
to be frank, i only did a bit.
haha!
saw the cruel side of sheryl house.
she told that that happens always on saturday.
omg?..then if i am a kid in her house, i am dead for sure le loh.
haha.

having a blog is a very dangerous thing i think.
it is as dangerous as a volcano
as it is a active one
it may explode anytime.
and affect other peoples blog de.

really dun noe wat to do le. everything is moving in the opposite way.
i can predict that sooner or later we may...cuz i dun really understand you more and more le...

^ the words above are meant not to be seen, so pls dun see. Thanks for your cooperation:)

watching movie, 20th century boys 2 soon!!
with zhengdi and christ.
YAY!!! looking forward to it lots after watching the first one.
so when are we going to watch..hmmmm...

2009-05-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

yah, i failed two subject le.
yah, my results dropped.
yah, i regretted.
but..
time can't rewind for me.
soo i can only move forward.
i promise myself i will work hard.
cuz..
looking at my mom make my heartache.
this is the first time that she didn't scold me about my poor results.
it makes me felt more guilty to her.
that night when i told her my results.
she didn't scold me.
in the midnight.
i cried.
cried for the longest time.
i really feel guilty.
the way she talked to me sentenced me to jail.
a jail in my heart.
long term jail....

tags replied..

2009-05-13T08:37:00.000-07:00

to Denise:
you are from class 22 right? hi!!!

to Na':
nice to meet you:) hihihi!!!haha!!

to nette:
thanks for the support but i am really fine:)

to zirui:
omg?! you are going to crush me??? Ahhhhh!! haha,my blog like zombie de.half live half dead.next time it alive will link you de:) i promise!

to qianny:
i not sad lah:) was juz clearing my thoughts in this blog.i am very happy!! Wahaha!!

to cia:
i will de:)haha!!!

to *:,
you are?...haha! weird..haha.pull it through? i will de although i did not get the whole idea of pull it through.thanks for the tag:)

to celine:
thanks for the tag:) and i am really ok de.haha.appreciated your advise lots,thanks:")

some things in my mind..

2009-05-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

the things that i am going to write below, i am not referring to anyone or anything.i am only clearing my minds.if i wrote sth that you dun like, i apologise here.

if the world does not have QUESTION MARK..

and only have FULL STOP,

what will the world become?

parents in the world will not question their kids about this or that...

siblings in the world will not question one another to ask if they had took their things..

couple will not question each other with questions....

why do people have to love?

it is the same as when people ask why do people have to die.
it is natural and is the start of everything on earth yet also another door open to sorrow and hatred...

what does friendship stands for?
if i were to give you four choice, what will you choose?

1) trust
2) fun
3) belief
4) burden

answer is...?

--THE END--

i changed...

2009-04-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

i had changed...
into someone i dun noe le...
sigh..
i cannot blame anyone about this..
it is all caused by myself..
sigh...

there was once when i was still young..
still innocent..
still alone..
but now..
why..

is one person more lonely or is having someone you love with you more lonely?
to me is...

i am really sorry that i keep throwing temper to you recently...
sorry..

this is a path i choose..and there is no turning back for me le..
it is too late le..
too late...

i hate myself to grow up so fast..
i hate myself to being the middle child..
i hate myself to meet you so early....
i hate myself to meet you when i still haven't learn how to love someone..

why people have personal feelings?
why must i noe how to love..
why must i noe how to make friends..
why must i being forced to do things that i shouldn't be doing in this age..

i should be studying now..not worry about this and that..

i regret to make close friends with you..
coz understanding you too much is a pain to me..
how i wish that time can rewind..
so i could go back to the period when we are still making friends with one another...
when we still dun noe each other too much...

HAPPY!!!!

2009-04-12T02:01:00.000-07:00

haha, i can even prank call people in the midnight.laughing to everyone i called!!!
happpppppppyyyyyy!!!!

haha, ok, time for serious business le.

to net,
dun need to say sorry de:)
coz i noe i am also at fault that day.
i noe that you are very troubled on that day but yet i still ask you to help in the dance.sorry..
friends still?
good friends still?

and yes! i alsooooo love the dance that have our effort and laughter in it:)

sheryl!!!
thanks for your support!
haha, and all your advice and all:)
really touched for all!! Love and miss you lots!!
and thanks for using mahjong to form my name, haha!
but my 'V" a bit out of shape leh..haha!

my love!!!

2009-04-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

thanks for all the things that you send me:)
that really really make me feel more better.
the rest i am not going to post here, but i here thank you for being sooooo understanding to me:)
and i am so glad that you think the same as me:)

OMG?!
thanks to danry,
i finally noe wat you are thinking!!
haha, thanks for all your support!!!

to danry,

2009-04-12T01:50:00.000-07:00

one more thing, thanks for your tag again, it allow me to understand more things from him:) thanks.

and..pls dun reply the people that tagged my blog.none of your business right?

to danry

2009-04-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

thanks for the tag you gave me,

this problem i thought before le..

but..

do you noe wat happen when i wanted to get close to him..

dun want to say too much about this..

i noe i am in wrong in my relationship, you can say me childish or scold me,i won't fight back..

but..

can you not be the one to start the scolding?

ask gabriel to scold me bah..

or ask him to break with me if he want...

you say when he tired but i dun even care?

do you noe that i also will feel tired de?

times when i was fighting with my parents, crying after that but i still have to chat with him happily?i dun want him to noe all these things..

you say i dun care but wat do you mean by care?

talk to him when he was resting on the table?

message him when he was pressing his stomach because of the pain?

or wat?

i dun even noe wat to do loh..he is my first stead..you expect me to noe wat to do? i can tell you i dun noe.

spent time with him?

you think i have time?you think i am as free as you?you think i can go out whenever i want?

i can tell you i am still learning how to communicate with him even in phone.

ask me to be more girly? be more gentle? do more smart things? please him?

then i ask you, is that me le mah?

i can act as that de..

i mean act..

i wun really become like this de..

change for him?

too difficult for me...

be girly?

dun suit me..

gentle?

impossble for me..

smart things?

i am stupid i admit..

please him?

am i his pet or wat?

do wat he say?

am i his dog?

yah, i dun noe anything.

i apologize for anyhow saying.

think i am bossy?

i admit i am.

treat friend better?

which friend?

christina?

she have you le.she have you she happy le.

yah i dun noe how to change.

why must i?change wat?

tell me this for my own good?

thanks for that:)

wat happen today..

2009-04-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

i am so surprised that you can actually laugh at her, althought not sure who you laughing at but if you are laughing at her, can you understand her feeling?! can you?!

ok, i dun want to talk about it le..

today, have a lot of fun dancing with sheryl and net!!!
haha, very fun:) glad that we already planned the dance half way le!!! good work!!!
then at netball, due to the rain, there is no netball training then we did some ball work then went home.

sigh...now at home watching television, later will study history de:) haha . i must work hard!!!

quiz by cia:)

2009-03-30T05:36:00.000-07:00

Quiz 1, (tagged by cia)
1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?- dun noe, didn't try be4?
2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?- i feel i am dead, coz i will be late to meet
sheryl.
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?- netballers:)
4.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?- Not at all.
5.Would you ever donate blood?- yes but i scared pain!
6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?- nope.
7.Do want someone dead?- YES, very very much!
8.What does your last message in your inbox say?- ask him if you want to noe:P
9.What are you thinking of right now?- i am thinking of to get to bed now.zzz...
10.Do you wish someone was with you right now?- no, i want to sleep le..
11.What time did you go to sleep last night?- about 1?
12.Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?- family tee
13.Is someone on your mind right now?- yes!
14.Who was the last person to text you?- gabriel:)
PEOPLE TO TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ:
1. christina
2. sheryl
3. shixian
4. annette
5. qianyan
6. zirui
7. gabriel
8. delia
9. celine
10.nicole
15. Who is 2 having relationship with? (sheryl)- nobody but maybe soon will have:P
16. Is 3 a male or a female? (shixian)- Female.
17. If 7 & 10 get together will that be a good thing? (gabriel & nicole)- No!
18. What is number 1 studying about? (christina)- dun noe?
19. Is Number 4 single? (annette)- nope:P
20. Say something about Number 5? (qianyan)- a person with many faces.
21. What do you think about Number 3 & 6 being together? (shixian & Zirui)- erm...not very
good..
22. Describe Number 9. (celine)- a girl that is my good partner in netball:)
23. What will you do if Number 6 & 7 fight? (zirui & gabriel)- stop them if i can?
24. Do you like Number 8? (delia)- yes as my friend:)

END OF QUIZ:)

sigh..sorry:(

2009-03-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

did sth wrong to him again..
seems to always did the wrong thing in everything i do..
why?
i think i need someone to be always beside me to tell me if wat i did was correct..
always..
always..
always..
i always do the wrong things..
no matter in..
friendship..
netball..
school work..
library club..
and now even relationship..
sorry is all i can say..
but i noe that is not enough..
but i dun noe wat to say or do le..
really..
i dun noe wat to do le.............................

today training very fun!

2009-03-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

today training ended very very early sia!
should end at 12 noon but ended at 1o.30.
not sure why also but coach seems to be in a good mood coz she all the way laughing,haha!
and one more thing is..
THE NETBALL LIKE TO STICK WITH CELINE!
haha!

to celine,
no matter where you hide, the netball will be able to find you:P

then after training, chatted with qy, jennifer, cia for about 2 hr?!
haha! very fun actually, and i have to praise them, you all memory very goood! haha!

then reach home at about 2.30, bathed then ate sth then went out again:)
went to sheryl house!!!
haha, i took bus 80 to sheryl's house.
but...
oversleep:(
went to somewhere near hougang mall but dun noe where.
called for help!SOS TO SHERYL!
then took bus 132 to her house.haha
did some hw at her house but was very sleepy so didn't do much,
haha!
she even gave me a ws that have 120++ question about factorise !!!
haha! but thanks for help me in my studies:)i noe you meant good de!

open my blog to everyone now:)

2009-03-28T07:51:00.000-07:00

to all who visited my blog,
do leave me a tag and pls dun care wat i write here.if you hate me or my blog juz put your name and state the reason why ,then press the X on the top right hand corner. many thanks to all!

should i give the link to other people?

2009-03-22T05:39:00.000-07:00

should i or not?
i think i should still update the other blog.
one happy, one sad
one cheerful, one emo
one fake, one real
two side of me.
those who i told you the links to are people that i think understand me:)
this blog is plainly a place for me to shout, cry out de.
so if there is anything offending to you, i here apologize to you.

i noe i will regret someday...

2009-03-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

somehow i noe wat i do now i will regret someday..
why can't i be the old me to be able to forget things juz at a blink of my eye?
i can't....
will i regret?
will i or not?
i dun noe...

我放弃了。。。

2009-03-15T01:27:00.000-07:00

i give up.
every every every things i am at fault..
why?
why am i so useless in everythings..
why?
why must i give in..
why?
why must we be lovers..so difficult to say everything out...
why?
why does human need love?
why?
why is there friends?
why why why why why?

i am going to give up and give out..
i wun interfere in your matter..
i wun think of the word hate..
i wun love u that deep that will cause me to lose everything like my friends..i promise myself.
i wun!

to someone i really want to say thanks to..

2009-03-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

to qy,
thanks for everything you did for me.
thanks!
that person still a bit wat lah...
but things are getting better:)
however..
i still think i am the dessert to her..
i hate to believe that but it seems so much like the true..
it is impossible to have things to rewind...
lastly, happy to met someone like you that is mature in some ways and dun mind me to keep on bothering u:)

new blog

2009-03-15T00:51:00.000-07:00

new blog for me to say things out..
good or bad thing is that?
i dun noe..

why things can be as simple as ABC?
i did watever u want me to but i am still wrong..
WHY?!

WHY AM I THE ONE TO HAVE TO SOLVE THIS KINDS OF THINGS?
WHY?
MY HEADS CANNOT SOLVE COMPLICATED THINGS!
DO U REALLY TREAT ME AS A FRIEND?
OR JUZ STH NAMED DESSERT?
ANSWER ME!
TELL ME!
I DUN LIKE TO THINK!
REALLY DUN WANT!
I SOLVE MY THINGS TILL EVERYTHING CRASHED!
WHY?
I LET GO THEN ONE BLAME ME..
I HOLD TO IT THEN ONE ALSO BLAME ME..
THEN WAT I HAVE TO DO?
JUZ TREAT U LIKE WAT?
WAT IS THE MIDDLE RANGE OF THAT?
TELLLLLLLLLL ME!
I CANNOT LET GO..